The Waiting Game

A famous Malay saying goes, "Penantian itu satu penyeksaan"..... That waiting is like a torment.

In my case, the waiting game to know my fate, on whether I can cross the fence to greener pastures, started since the last 2 weeks. The HR people there said that they will revert to me in 3-4 weeks time. And for the last 2 weeks, my dad, my friends would ask me, have you got the offer? Not yet, I say.

A fellow friend who went to the interviews together with me, have been calling and following-up with the HRD. But until today, no offer letter is out yet, even for him. We got verbal confirmations that we have been accepted but nothing in black & white. Not good enough I say...

I was rather anxious about the situation at the office last week that I planned to quit this week. Tawakkal I said to myself, as I was confident that I would get the offer soon. But, several friends advised me that it was more prudent that I wait till I get the letter. Anything can happen they say.

Well, I knew that. Its just that I wanted to end my term here as soon as possible rather than spend another month. Mind you, I have to serve a 2 months notice before I can join the new place.... The passsion here is gone, I'm numb already. All the sensations of being passionate about your job are gone, thanks to you know who.

I know a respected academic who left, simply because she could not stand this person. And she left owing the company thousands of ringgit (due to her bonding agreement) and without any job secured at the point of resignation. She admitted that it was a kamikaze thing to do but she was indeed traumatised by the treatment she got and just could not stand the person any longer. I feel sorry for her but felt that her actions were rather extreme. She must have been traumatised to the max!!!

In the past, I also thought of resigning several times when the boss caused me problems. But I persevered, knowing that I've had enough of jumping around and have an important mission to complete - my masters degree.

But when an opportunity like this comes, at a career defining moment, I have to make my decision. And my decision is to leave when the time is right, at the right package and to the right organisation. I pray my decision this time will be correct....

And the waiting continues...